Monday, November 23, 2009

Life in a Bubble.

Things are tough. This year is so much more different and more difficult to deal with than my freshmen year and I don't know why. Being a sophomore, I am the commander of the freshmen kids and taking care of them has been such a blessing. I always tend to have an easy time getting along with people and pleasing them, but when it comes to me, I don't know how to deal with certain things. I wish pleasing myself would be as easy for me as it is for me to please others. I have the hardest times coming out of a slump nowadays that it bugs me like crazy. Usually I'm able to brush it off but after meeting all these different people with different perspectives on life, I feel like I've slowly begun to change into a different Sam. It should be alright though. I just have to constantly believe that God is with me always (which honestly, I am having trouble with). My burning passion for God from last year is gradually diminishing. I guess I just wish there were people to constantly nudge me in the right direction. I guess I just miss having Joe Choe always nudge me in the right direction. I guess I just gotta start learning to be independent and step up my self motivation. Life's tough.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

home>residential halls

these feelings of comfort, ease, happiness, blessing, love.
this is what I've been missing during my past few months of college.
home sweet home. it truly is.
my safe haven. my shelter. my favorite hiding place.

my family I've missed.
the friends i left behind.
my precious dog, so grown now.

Thank you God.
I am slowly getting to know you through QT.
and I wish to gradually start believing that you truly are
my Father. my Best friend. =]

break me. mold me.
constantly test me.
i will be steadfast & ready.

with accountability,
we will not fail.

Sunday, March 8, 2009


I'm maturing.
I can See it. I can Feel it.
I'm realizing.
How blind I've been. How stubborn I was.
I'm changing.
My eyes are open. My lifestyle is different.

And I Like It. Alot.

From here on out.
I live.
with the realization that God is guiding me.
and this is the foundation on which my life will be structured.

Friday, February 20, 2009


I'll be completely honest- reality scares me.

Maybe it's something other people can't see or realize, and I'm not trying to put myself above other people, but when you see the truth behind humanity and its institutions, its almost sad. if you involve yourself and have expertise in multiple facets, you notice a very significant underlying notion; people's intentions are very bent and the ignorant masses interpret them into damaging proportions. take prozac- the creator's intentions were not to help sick people but out of "scientific fun." This misplaced intention consumes anything from churches to the government to the music industry to pharmaceutical companies- who in power are we to trust completely? Should we just live in ignorance and in bliss with illusions of spirituality or displaceable happenings or find out the truth and realize the inconsistent and fallacious nature in the corporate.. no, not even corporate, human world?

All my life, I've always questioned myself about things like these..
but for now, I wonder how big of an impact college will make on me.
We'll just have to observe the outcome.
Will my perception on things change?
Will I change? For better or for worse?

Thursday, February 19, 2009

just DO IT.

As my mom always said, "if you do not work as hard as everyone else but expect the same results, you're a thief," and when I didn't listen to her, she would also say "growing up, thieves never listened to the people who cared about them either." In that sense, maturity is gained similarly through this fashion; thinking that you have grown up just because you are getting older doesn't mean anything. It is the opportunites given in time and your actions on those opportunities. Otherwise, you're just the same.

So step up to the plate of opportunity with the bat of decision, face the pitch of reality, and smack it away. I feel sympathy for those that shun themselves from reality. Pity- that's how I would best describe it.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009


My first blog shall lean towards inspiration.

Life is very beautiful. Be patient, be adventurous, have good intentions and aim high in accomplishments. All that you deserve in life will come to you.

I don't think I'll be able to continue this blog for much longer.
I have trouble staying focused on things like these for a long period of time.