Miracles exist.

God is working in me.

I can already see the changes.

Prayer is a blessing.

The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

My biggest PROBLEM

There's one thing that's always been bothering me about myself. Why is it so hard for me to have close friends?

It's really hard for me to get close and stay close with people. I start to distance myself from them because I don't like the feeling of attachment. I get annoyed very easily and feel like I annoy them when in reality, all we're trying to do is keep in touch and try to strengthen our bond as friends. I've only been able to stay close friends with 6 people throughout my lifetime: Shaheen, Sam Chen, Brendon, Amos, Andrew, and Anderson. I feel that the reason I am able to stay close friends with them is that I am attending a college that keeps me distant from them. This fear of attachment worries me when it comes to the future because I know I will have a hard time dealing with relationships which is mainly the reason why I try to avoid getting into relationships at all costs.

Over time, instead of thinking of "why" it was so hard for me to make close friends, I should have been asking myself, what's wrong with attachment.

I pray that God will work through me and help me as I struggle through this. I know He won't fail as long as I keep believing ;]

Fading Out

I finally feel like I've come to a point in life where everything is flowing really well. I feel like I'm on top of everything, yet I know there's something missing. What's worse is that I know what that something is. It's not family, nor friends that I'm missing. It's not a girlfriend or a best friend that I'm missing. It's God. My priorities have changed into something that I feel comfortable with. I'm on the wrong path.

But you know what. This is something I can CHANGE. and I WILL.

But not alone.. for God is with me :]

and HE has put awesome people in my life to help me to the cross daily.

that is what I believe.